Overwhelmed by Everything, Taking It In Stride

Fri, 08/27/2010 - 18:28 Written by: tripage

A month and ten days ago I got married.

Two and a half weeks ago we moved to New York City from Texas.

In a week I'll start Grad School at SVA in Manhattan.

It's absolutely insane to see so many things I've hoped and prayed for come true. And, everything has happened all at the same time. Suffice it to say, I've been incredibly overwhelmed the past couple of months.

Human beings are funny (or, at least, I am funny). We can long for something so badly that nothing else matters, but when we finally get what we were seeking, we miss what we once had.

I miss my friends.

Out of all the places in the world God could have put Jess and I, I think New York makes us the most uncomfortable. Give us the countryside, the mountains, suburbs, even a third world country and we would be on top of the world.

But the super urban metropolitan area of New York City?

This place is weird. People have to walk to the grocery store, take trains everywhere they go, and driving isn't personal, it's business.

For the first week or two of this move, I kept asking myself why we're here. Did I make the right decision? Was it ok to take my wife and I to a world far away from our friends and family? Is this really where God wants us to be?

But I look at everything He did to allow this to happen. We wouldn't be here without divine providence.

Still, I question what exactly He wants me to do here.

There are things I know I must do. I must love and connect with my wife. I must provide for my family. I must work hard in school and strive to make this education worth the cost.

I think that God isn't guiding me every step of the way because he wants me to make my own decisions. Just like there's a point in someone's life when they stop holding their parents hand to cross the street, God isn't always going to hold my hand. He wants me to trust and rely on Him, but also to be an adult.

So, I'm in New York now. I'm trying to be an adult. I'm trying to love my wife and be a good husband.

This is going to be one fantastic adventure.